“Without faith it is impossible to please Him, for (s)he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him!” (Hebrews 11 v 6)
Lord, I find it so very, very difficult
To simply just be,
To sit before You silently
In rapt attention of adoration.
My mind runs hither and thither
But nowhere in particular.
Send down please, the fire of Your Spirit,
For two specific, essential purposes.
Firstly, burn away the ugly dross,
Of any and all of my sinfulness.
Without the call to forgiveness,
I cannot worship fully, not sincerely.
Secondly, please ask Your Spirit
To actually set me on fire with love,
A pure devoted love for the Trinity.
Life can only become as holy
As You, the Trinity, in Your love
For all of us, Your family,
Equip us to properly worship.
We must offer ourselves to You entirely,
Nothing held back so we nothing lack
Of Your godly influence and inspiration.
Lord, holy Three, Almighty Trinity,
Full to overflowing with love and mercy,
As I adore You, I implore You
To come to me when I am prayerfully occupied,
To take up residence, never to leave me.
Even when I forget You, do not forget me.
Do not abandon the work of Your hands,
Whereby You have brought me this far
In faith, in trust, in dependency.
Please take me forwards, onwards, upwards
Towards that heavenly realm of eternity,
Awaiting all who are faithful to Jesus.
I ask in heartfelt sincerity, to be one such.
Touch me throughout every hour of the day,
And in the night as I sleep peacefully.
Prepare me for our later meeting.
But not only as I pray, but regularly.
There are too many long hours
When to my shame, I do not even think about You,
Let alone turn and talk with You.
Walk with me, dear Lord, continually.
For then possibly, I can just be.
Be so aware of Your closeness addressing me,
Helping me, blessing me regularly,
I will manage to just be, living reflectively.
O Lord, urgently I need You to do this for me.
Thank You for the countless times previously,
When, by Your Spirit, You helped me to live properly,
And to give of myself, all to Your glory.
Therein I am truly made happy.
All praise and thanks ever, ever therein be.
“…concerning the Word of life – that life was manifested and I have seen and bear witness and declare to You that eternal life which was with the Father and was manifested to me –” (1 John 1 v 1, 2 personalised)
“That which I have seen and heard I declare to you, that you also may have fellowship with me and truly our fellowship is with the Father and with His Son Jesus Christ. And these things I write to you that your joy may be full.” (1 John 1 v 3, 4 personalised)
Lord, we are told in all truth which can be readily experienced: “ ‘For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also’.” (Luke 12 v 34) You are my treasure, so my heart must be given to You.
But I can only do this fully by rapt awareness of Your presence and all too often, and too easily, I lose my sense of Your nearness. I am sorry.
I ask for Your Spirit’s help to remind me to pray more often, to also simply stop what I am doing to look Your way, and enter into conversation with You.
Why does this not happen? What prevents it? Am I too busy? Or too pre-occupied with my own agenda? Am I simply going on automatic pilot?
I do not want life to be like this. I wish to grow closer and closer to You, Lord Jesus, so in this I can please and honour our Father.
Only in You, through You, together with You, sensing Your nearby presence, can I truly worship and this is of more importance to me. I thank You for any progress I have made, but know there is as yet, a long way to go.
Thank You that I can avail myself of the sacraments, of serious biblical study, of seeking greater spiritual learning, all of which helps me. Thank You especially for the blessings of the Eucharist where Your real presence is promised.
Lord Jesus, You are life to me, the real life as planned and purposed by our Father. Thank You for making me aware of this by means of Your Spirit. I rejoice to know You as Saviour.
May the Spirit help me to be still, really still in Your presence, still in mind as well as body, attentively listening with real concentration which will sense any movement of Your Spirit upon my heart, mind, will or conscience.
“…feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart,” (Psalm 37 v 3, 4)Himself surely! It is this which makes us of right standing in our Father’s eyes, once we have accepted You as Saviour, Lord Jesus.
“Commit your way to the LORD, trust also in Him.” (v 5) This is what I must do. This is what I want to do knowing the outcome of the forgiveness You won for us at the † of salvation, that place of amazing healing.
Lord Jesus, through the Father, by the Holy Spirit, You “Shall bring forth our righteousness as the light and our justice as the noon day.” (based on v 6) There is no half measure about this, thank You.
As You come to us as Divine Healer, I ask You please to heal me of any half-heartedness or unwillingness to seek You first, to live entirely to be of service to Your kingdom. “Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him.” (v 7)
Why do I find it so very, very difficult to simply just be, to sit before You silently? Am I allowing myself to be carried away by my own enthusiasm for Your works, without leaving sufficient time for replenishment?
I need to be full to overflowing with Your Spirit, if I am to honour and adore our Father through my friendship with You, Lord Jesus. “The steps of a good (wo)man are ordered by the LORD, and He delights in his (her) way.” (v 23) May this be so for me.
“Though (s)he falls, (s)he shall not be utterly cast down, for the LORD upholds him (her) with His hand.” (v 24) I ask for this to happen please when I keep making the same mistakes time and again.
I do not want to be such a slow learner. Instead, make me wholehearted in my pursuit of living always in all holiness. May I “Depart from evil,” (v 27) the evil of not heeding You, of not even acknowledging my need of You, which happens when I go my own way.
“The law of God in his (her) heart, none of his (her) steps shall slide.” (v 31) May this be so for me, as I “Wait on You LORD, and keep Your way…For the future of that (wo)man is peace,” (based on v 34, 37) and I am devoid of that peace when I fail You. For in failing You, I fail our Father and this troubles me.
But, all thanks, all praise, and most certainly all glory ever, ever be, “The salvation of the righteous is from the LORD, and You are our strength in the time of trouble,” (based on v 39) because Lord Jesus, Saviour, You are our Healer, my Healer.
You help and heal, teach and re-make. You deliver us from all that is evil, including the evil of turning away from You even if this is merely careless thoughtlessness, an unnecessary hurry to be about our own ideas.
“I do not claim to have received all that God has for me, neither have I yet been made perfect.” (Philippians 3 v 12 The Truth) I know this only too well, and it is uncomfortable. My failures weigh me down. Please forgive my lack of devotion and help me in the future.
I pray asking to do better in my resolve to sit silently before You, Lord Jesus, to offer up my entire self in worship. For I want to be daily “Moving forward to take hold of everything that You have planned to give me when You took hold of my life.” (Cont.)
Oh, most happy day when You did this, thank You so much! Lord, take me now forwards, ever rejoicing in Your close presence, for I seek to be a child of Your joy as I come to God. Amen.
14.07.20
Sue O’Donnell